Surviving Another Night

It’s Saturday and I had another emotional breakdown (EB).

Basically, I was just disturbed. But this time it’s not because of my neighbor’s thong hanging at the fence. Pardon me, my neighbor is great but it’s her bro (with the quirky thongs).

Anyway, please do not ask why, but I always have EB, at least once a week. Maybe I wasn’t meant to be a SAHM for long. Maybe.

So, I kinda ‘kidnapped’ my own baby and just get out there with my mind racing - thinking where to go. Ampun moi dear hubby, but you know me too well to worry rite!

I end up deciding to go to Subang Parade just before I missed the NKVE entrance and 10 minutes later I was already at SP. Note to self, always park at the basement coz they have multiple access to shopping floors via huge elevators.

Heh, the stores just opened and human beings are scarce! This is why I luv to go out early. Ingatkan nak isi perut dulu, tapi terlalu depan Mothercare and end up buying a set of 7 short sleeved jumpsuit for Ammar. The sales girls remind me the set’s entitled to 20% off with another normal priced items. I just shrugged it off coz I thought I dun need anything else other than jumpsuits. So on the way out, I did some calculation and realized how stupid I was throwing hefty discounts just like that. If I bought another normal priced romper that cost RM25, I still have to pay the whole thing for for the same price only that the romper will be free rite? Budussss. So tak de rezki kat situ.

Then, sambil tensi2 tu I craved chocalate and me + Ammar strolled straight to Secret Recipe and have Choc Indulgence + Banana Choc + Iced Caramel Machiato. The waiter looked at me top to toe, Iike I owe him sumtin’. WTH? But then I realized, I was wearing my baju pegi pasar and slippers (tapi aku mandi apa…). Crap. But who cares rite? It’s not like I eat for free.

BTW, SR’s Iced Caramel Machiato SUCKS big time.

Absolutely no more jumpsuits after this!

I tapaw BigMac set for hubby so that perut kenyang suka hati. That’s moi story for today. Soooo not me? Oh, it’s me alrite!

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This made me crumble today. Though our situations might be different, it is a loss nonetheless. I let it go a long time ago. And He gave me another one, just like that. Allah Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang.